How to Save?

I am so sure that I am the wrong person to blog about this but maybe atleast when I get to read it I will be more inspired to - SAVE.

SAVE money - for the past 6 years that I have been working I never did this and am I regretful? Yes and No. 

Yes because I know I could have done it and NO because I know I was able to use my money on important things. Yes because I feel like I could have practically done a lot of things like travel in/out Cebu but NO because I know I was able to help my family for the past 6 years. Yes because I could have bought something useful and worth-keeping that is expensive but NO because I was able to do memories still eating out with friends and helped my brother finish school. But Yes because I could have done all the reasons when on NO's if I was able to save.

I was able to read some blogs and most of the successful people I know and known to other people always say they Save a lot. WHHHYYY CANT I DO IT?

Miss Gina my favorite trainer once told me that the secret is SAVE first and then spend. That's like her motto. She was able to travel a lot of places already because most of the time she save and enjoy her savings later on.

Miss Lizzie my manager once said she regretted that she did not save money at an early age. She could have done so much already. She started saving when she was 26 years old and was highly influenced by her then-boyfriend, now-husband. Before they got married last year they already have their own house and car and prior to getting married they have been to places here inside Philippines already.

Miss Shelley my other manager/friend said that she is really keen into saving. Eversince she never had expenditure that she was guilty of. She was able to develop their own house, letting her friends borrow money from her and able to support her younger brother to finish school. And now,she is still saving even if she's married.

An old friend told me before that I have to save and only let go of the money that you wont be regretful to spend or give or borrow. 

Okay, these people are like older than me and even being paid more than my wage. But still when will I ever start?

Recently I started reading Bianca Gonzales's blog and I saw a lot of people there - and mind you SUCCESSFUL people there who always say they are good at saving and look where they are now.. That also includes Bianca herself.

Karen Davila a very successful news anchor said : “I am a very big saver. For some time now, I’ve been saving 80 percent of what I earn.”

Ha Ji Won is also good in saving as a matter of fact she was awarded before for Prime Minister Award for Savings. 

Boy Abunda a successful celebrity as well is known for being a good saver and you can just imagine how much he invested. Even if he is getting a lot of money most of the time he saves it too. 

I know I have a lot of things to buy, a lot of places I wanted to go, and goals to achieve. And even if they say that money is not everything I wish I could also realize that money is almost everything. 

Right now, I am starting to save and hopefully I can keep this promise. I wanted to go places this year. As what they say go to one place that you have never been to once a year and that is my ultimate goal atleast before I could get married. You have to know and budget your expenses. But save first. 

My Wife Got Married

I think this is the last movie I would watch in 2013 and although I didn't really understand the story at first I have came up with the realization that it actually made sense.

Is it really possible to love two people at the same time? The movie was really not the typical movie and for me I find it realistic. Again for me. Maybe because I have experienced it? Yeah? Its kind of immoral because the main character ju in-nah got married twice and it's kind of upsetting that she didnt really care what would happen next although she wouldnt bother being shared by two men. And I think she was seriously ridiculous! But then again how can you resist her? When the guy was so inlove with her for a very long time...

Dukhun the husband was also ridiculously patient. Yes if I were him I would divorce In nah right away and i dont even care if I love her so much but then again... 😧

One of the lessons I have learned from that movie and yes there were a lot but I'd opt not to say it is that just live life to the fullest. There was a line that although I cannot remember exactly it went on like..
"Do you know what is wrong with Korea  soccer?"
"They just aim to win"
"Exactly..they do not enjoy the game"

Which is true. No matter how ridiculous life can be...we just really have to enjoy the ride. We do not always attack..we also aim to enjoy what has given to us.
A friend told me before that you should not follow you heart when you fall in love because your heart can deceive you. I think I was in that situation before and I couldnt agree more.. it CAN deceive you. But as I grow older and experienced a lot I realized YOU CAN NEVER TEACH YOUR HEART WHERE IT WANTS TO GO.. although you can choose not to follow it but what does it guarantee you?

Ahh so many things I want to say about that. I have to explain why I watched that movie..if you are bothered. Well..it was Son Ye Jin..one of my faves and i dont care about the rest. Lol SYJ received grandslam best actress for the movie..and the love scene was really hot btw and not to mention LOL. I wonder how can they really trick that? I cannot imagine SYJ doing that when she was one of the most innocent faces in Korea. Hehe
Anyway.. so much to say...and before I end this let me greet you a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!😁🎉💥

Why I love KPOP!

If you haven't noticed yet, but I am super fan of KPOP - Korean POP (music). Well, actually just a few artists. Today I am going to list the top 5 reasons why I love KPOP!!! Well, it hasn't been that long that I have been a fan.. maybe around 4 years when Gee era started. So here it goes:

1.) SNSD - while I was trying to explain that they are not my first bias, or they were not the reason why I got into KPOP but actually, they were the reasons. LOL. I have known SNSD since 2009 and although I wasn't that much of fanatic then they were the one who pushed me to get into KPOP. This is a group of 9-angels.. no goddesses! These girls are really amazing individually so what do we expect? I actually have a lot of reasons why I love them I could post a separare blog for that! LOL

2.) Music - Catchy is the word. Although you do not understand the lyrics but it's either the chorus is in english, or the chorus is repeating, or the melody is just easy to remember!

3.) KPOP Fans - I haven't seen fans like the KPOP has. Geez, they're crazy! LOL. When their biases perform you can hear the loud fanchants! glowsticks that would light up venues like domes! They have a huge support from YT viewing and votes online! And for foreigners, even if we have different time zones, fans know how to work it in Korean time! Adik dbha? They are very passionate!

4.) Dedication of Idols - you can really see the dedication of these so-called Idols... Although the word Idol is something really low in their world .. but they all deserve to be called Artists. The hierarchy is from idols -> actresses -> artists. But mind you all of KPOP idols were trained not less than 1-2 years! They were trained and working their butts off like forever! They have to do their best on their training just to debut. That is why most of the KPOP idols really are good in terms of performing live! There are always discrimination about not performing live, but you would understand because they mostly dance like crayy!!

5.) The industry itself. This is actually something to be envy about.  KPOP idols can guest wherever they want, which channels, which music station, shows, variety shows. Although they have channel rivalries but the idols are allowed to guest anywhere unlike in the Philippines when artists/idols can only stay and do shows on their home networks. Kpop doesn't have like that. That may be is the reason why KPOP is known because all channels can view/use/expose them. I get sad because Philippines have amazing artists too but they are isolated on their home networks because of network war. It really sound silly to me.

Anyway, So yeah.. there goes my top 5. Maybe next time I get to post again the reasons why I love SNSD because I haven't posted anything about them yet. :))

The Same

Holding hand in hand and while my head is lying on your chest I can feel your heartbeat
And you keep on whispering in my ear that I am the only one that your heart will love.

These are just the sweetest moments in every bit of time
It always feel so good to feel the warmth of your love
I couldn't stop my lips from smiling
I couldn't even notice the tear on my cheek
And I just cant help on telling myself
I wish we will just remain as what we are now

What I want is to embrace you right now
I want to make you feel how much I love you
And I just wish we will remain forever be, and will never change
The love that we have for each other

Girl Crush

Girl crush - feelings of admiration and adoration which a girl has for another girl, without wanting to shag said girl. a nonsexual attraction, usually based on veneration at some level. 

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Girl crush - I can confidently say that I am not the insecure-type of girl. Okay we have to draw the line there. Insecure can be towards the other party or insecure about yourself. I can say I am insecure with myself in terms of "i wish i am this/that" , I am kind of more on not having enough confidence. Although I am slowly coming out of my shell and learned the thought of "i dont care what other people say about me" I still am trying hard to be someone I want to be. That is why I have girl crushes before.. yes! crushes! LOL they serve as my inspiration, physically, emotionally, spiritually, ethically, and all else in between.

I was supposed to post a blog before about my girl crushes but I wasn't able to spare some time. LOL. Actually,  I didn't bother at all because maybe you would laugh at me, but who cares? it's my blog okaaay! So here they are:

1.) My best friend LOL Regina Armi Arnado - she was my first girl crush ---  like my favorite person in the whole wide world when I was young. She was witty, smart and hilarious. I wish I could get her sense of humor and just get to entertain the people I am with. I just dont have that. I also think she was the most favorite kid when we were younger. I think she was my first girl-crush. She's awesome and I am so happy we became friends.

2.) Regine Velasquez - she's  supposed to be #1.  But I cannot really say she is my girl crush but she's more like my idol. She really has the big influence in my life since I was younger. However, she's someone that I cant get enough off even until now. I am so amazed by her character, talent and life so she's like my #1 role model of everything! There were so many things I have learned from her even if she doesn't know me. LOL

3.) Julita Belchez  she was my first year high school Science teacher. I do not know why I like her but I really like how she taught us before? LOL But really, she was selfless, she only has good words for everybody. She's like a mom to us and I really really want to be like her. I would even look for her in school because I just wanna see her everyday and be inspired. She's very religious as well and she would push us on praying every day in her prayer room, so she's also an inspiration.

4.) Gina Malait - she was my communication/customer service trainer. LOL she knows that I really like her okaay! But this woman really has a huge knowledge and taller than her height! kekeke She's very cool and she knows how to live life to the fullest! Actually, I didn't realize that I like her until I got out from training. I think she was one of the pillars of my CTC-life that I can lean on. And I don't know why? LOL kidding. But I really like this woman. Her statements were always pasok sa banga for me, I feel like I was understanding things that my shallow mind wont understand. She's also very pretty and I so love her english accent! haha she was a natural speaker and I want to be like that too. Like my previous teacher Julita Belchez I would also often look for her so I can be inspired working. She's like my crush - like really! wahaha and I don't know why? 

5.) Jennifer Aniston and Lawrence - yes! these two gals are really awesome! I dont know but everytime I see these two on articles/online I would really smile. I feel like they're both good women from the inside and it really reflects their physical appearance and aura.

6.) Daghana na!! whahaha but I think this has gotta be my ultimate girl crush. Someone that I can question my sexuality! wahaha (i hope my boyfriend doesn't get to read this LOL). I love everything about her, he face, body, intelligence, attitude, passion, like everrrryyyytttthhhhiiiinggg!! (LOL NOT REALLY.) I'd give everything just to meet her and see her and be friends with her!!!Yeah I am like that.. she's my ultimate girl crush! everything she does is very amazing..amazing yeoja! LOL you know who she is? it's Ha Ji Won-ssi! :)) She's one of the top actresses in S. Korea, at first glance you wont really see her as very drop dead gorgeous (maybe on some pics ) but once you get to know her or her character you'd surely fall in love with her like I do.. like gaaa! I get butterflies in my stomach everytime I see her. I have this really kilig inside and there are so many things that is just amazing about her :) <3 

to be continued..

Gravity By Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 
'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love 
And not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. 
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while 
And all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. 
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see 
That you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down,
You're keeping me down
Something always brings me back to you, 
It never takes too long

Hard.

I couldn't pull my self up to be better for this whole week. I do not know if I have waken up in a wrong side of the bed because it seems to be impossible to be like this everyday. This week has been so stressful from the earthquake started on October 15th and then aftershocks every day, from the Account I am working with and the people. I cannot help but ask God if I did anything wrong for me to be punished like this.... think think think.. yes, I think I did. Until when will I bare it?

I really want to quit my job because of all these going on, I think everything is getting worse than they seem but still I asked my self if am I really that busy to complain? I am not sure. How busy can I get? Is this the worse? Definitely not.

I even thought of quitting before the year ends but I do not have the heart to leave like this, as an old friend said "If you must quit, do it for the right reasons". There are no guarantees even that I can be better on a different company, maybe the thought of it is exciting but who knows when the excitement would end? I know , I know, I think too much. But I have to think really hard. I AM NOT HAPPY.

Will I be happy when I transfer? I swear it is not the pay, I don't even think I can be paid the same as I am being paid now on a different company.

Why I am not happy? Everything is not the same as what they seem - again. The environment is not a home as it was, I feel uncomfortable in my own home. The people were not the same, the mentality is different. I don't think it's because we were busy lately because I have been from worse, but this feeling is different now.

NO, I AM NOT HAPPY ANYMORE.

Let You Be by Regine Velasquez

Exactly what I feel now..

Time goes by after sad goodbye-s. 
So many changes meeting new faces

Different places with different cases. 

For other concerns your heart now burns

Can we still be together I ask. 

On my shy face I put on a mask

Am I a block to your destiny?  Or maybe I should just let you be

Maybe im just imagining things. 

Thinking you don't need someone like me

Maybe I should learn to call on you. 

Like what you used to do when you're blue

Bring back yesterday I sing. 

When friendship was a spontaneous thing

Am I part of your destiny?

Or maybe I should just let you be

Time moves in circles. 

Here I hope for miracles. 

Lost in confusion. 

I don't know how to move on

Am I too selfish on my part? 

Thinking you left me. 

Now we're apart. 

But it's unfair of you to leave me here. 

Living your dreams while I weep here in tears

Bring back yesterday I sing. 

When friendship was a spontaneous thing

Am I part of your destiny? 

Or maybe I should just let you be

Time moves in circles. 

Here I hope for miracles. 

Lost in confusion. 

I don't know how to move on?

Bad Girl.

When I created this blog, I was expecting that I would have a lot of negative things, rants, complaints and emotional problems to be posted but it was different from what I have been doing for the past few days. Maybe because there were always reasons for me to be happy. Well, I am very mababaw kind of person getting a corny message from my boyfriend would make me feel happy, seeing my mama cooking for me/us already makes me happy, making someone happy makes me feel happy and seeing Gdragon smiling would make me smile and heart flutters LOL.

I am like that.

I am very patient with my family, friends, work and less for my boyfriend. LOL. I always think of other people before I would think for myself. That may be is the reason why I am so sensitive because I always think what they think and what makes them happy. It seems as if I am trying to please them or making them think that I am always kind.

But to be honest I am not at all that goody-good girl, although I can also say that I am a good girl because I am really conscious on the things that I do and act. But the bad side of me is that getting annoyed for the wrong reasons, getting upset over nonsense things, get jealous without any reasons to be, pretend that I do when I don't and being too much of a good girl which is very annoying!

But let me make it clear that I am not like that all the time, I came to understand things, people and situation and I can adjust, I even talk to myself telling me that I shouldn't do that. But sometimes, you just really want to explode and wants to nag, rant, and do all the bad stuff that I have in my head but at the end I still keep it. I think I rarely complain nowadays and I am sad that most of the time I tell it to my boyfriend who also has his own issues. :(

Today, I just feel so un-happy. I am so annoyed. And I do not know if it's because I have been keeping this feeling for a long time that every little things that happen would just get into my nerve and would make me mad. Imagine? Just seeing that old friend's nuisance annoys me. Someone just took my swivel chair and I was already  annoyed. We get a lot of calls when it is my job to take calls I get annoyed. Although I try my very best not to be obvious when talking to my callers but when I am not, it is already written all over my face. BACK OFF!

That's me. I am not all that good. Maybe at times or most of the times, I am mean, irrational, upsetting.

Black - Gdragon ft. Jennie Kim

The color of my heart is black
It was burnt to black, just like that
I break glass whenever I feel like
And I look at my bloody hands and think, why am I like this wh

Your smile is shining gold
But the way you speak, feel so cold
As time goes by, you’re becoming more like me
Sometimes I feel like karma is running after me, know

The real name of love is definitely hatred
Hope is the parent of disappointment and despair
Why didn’t I know that the shadow that has casted over my face
Was created from the light called, you

It has been a while since the time between you and I have stopped
Misunderstanding is always the cause of pain
Well I don’t even know myself
So my hope for you to know me is a misunderstanding itself

People smile with an effort, hiding the truth
As if they’re happy
While hiding the lie in the word love
As if it will be forever

The color of my gloomy world is black
The beginning and end change, black and white
People are cunning, sometime become delusional
Really why am I like this, why

Those lips are red, just like red lies
As time goes by, the language between the two
The colors that each one has don’t mesh, yeah

The real name of love is definitely hatred
Hope is the parent of disappointment and despair
Why didn’t I know that the shadow that has casted over my face
Was created from the light called, you

Since I’ve met you agony is the only thing left
Everyday is series of hills of hardships and temptation
Now I sing of breaking up, I tell you
This is my last confession

People smile with an effort, hiding the truth
As if they’re happy
While hiding the lie in the word love
As if it will be forever

Someday when I’m left at the edge of the world alone
I might miss you yeah
Someday when I’m tamed to the edge of sadness
I might regret at the end

I’m going to go back to the way I came from, black
The summer when you and I were hot, it’s been too long

I’m going to go back to the way I came from, black
The summer when you and I were hot, it’s been too long

Fade away fade away fade away fade away
Fade away fade away fade away fade away