I wasn't with myself yesterday or..... I may be am with my real self yesterday.
Most of the people would describe as a happy-go-lucky, smiley girl, noisy, enthusiastic, comedian, and everything positive you can think of. I think it's true and that's what I usually project ( I think?!). That is because I get energized when I am with friends, I love poking jokes out of anybody and I just love to laugh and that;s what they see in me everyday. So for some other people they would say I am not in my usual self...
Because yesterday was so sentimental....so emotional. I could not even talk well, I don't know if I was saying the right thing, I get pissed easily, I wasn't smiling the whole time and I don't wanna talk to anybody. There's some kind of depression, sadness and stress from somewhere I do not know and I cannot figure out. I get teary-eyed when someone would ask me if I am okay? Silly? Yes? NO. Because I really am not okay and you cant expect me to say that I am okay when it's written all over my face that I am not. I had a bad time with my LDR-boyfriend as well that day ( yes, i have a boyfriend, and NO it's not because of him) so I couldn't help but cry. But then I realized, no one really knows the real me except my boyfriend I think. I asked God why am I like this? Why do I always think ahead? Why do I always think too much? Why am I too hard on myself?
So that day passed and God allowed me to move on and not deal with that feeling for a long time. Just that after I cried. Though it's kind of a weird feeling you get when you do not know where it is coming from, it's also good to feel like that once in a while. I mean, that's for me, I don't know if it does for you. I am saying this because at that point in your life you get to know who the real people around you, who matters most, who cares about you and most importantly when you have no one to turn to, you get to be alone with God.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
I have made mention that I am really a fan of blogsites/websites, whenever I am bored, whenever I'm depressed, or feel like stalking I would just open a new window and then start spazzing from there. I'd like to share to you the websites I usually go to.
1.) FashionPulis - ( http://www.fashionpulis.com/ ) When midnight strikes I would always open this site for fresh showbiz news, blind items, and everything. This website amazes me really on how IT gets to screencap the updates from celebrities and how IT creates a very mind-effin' blind items. This is one if not my favorite sites that I go to, aside from being entertaining because of the posts and spazzer's comments the vocabulary you get here would make you nga-nga! LOL
2.) DailyMail/Mail Online - (http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/index.html ) Yes, this is a UK-based site that I open when I start my shift and every once in a while when I have time. I like this site because aside from awesome stories about Hollywood Celebrities and news around the globe, everything and anything I click here is accessible in the office. LOL. Unlike FashionPulis that when it detects the word "tweet", "instagram", "facebook" on the subject it would block me from viewing it's content. heheh.
3.) Kryz Uy's Thirstythought - ( http://www.kryzuy.com/ ) This is a fashion blog that I open everyday. I get amazed on how this native Cebuana gets to post daily blog inspite of having a busy schedule (close?) LOL. I just happen to stalk her in twitter and instagram so I know. hehe. She's just 23 years old (or 24?) but she does blogging really good. I have to say one of my models in terms of blogging.
4.) AllKpop - ( http://www.allkpop.com/ ) Yes, KPOP it is. I love KPOP (well, actually just a few :) ) This is also the first website I open when I open my computer..so should I put it on my #1 list? hahah I also have an account here so I get to comment whenever I want to. But the reason why I cannot put this to my #1 list is because the buttons here doesn't seem to work for me. Even on mobile :( but this is where I get to see updated news about KPOP and K-dramas that I think I am so not tired to read.
5.) Soompi - ( http://www.soompi.com/ ) Another KPOP website. Well, this doesn't really gets the freshest feed about KPOP but I freakin' love http://forums.soompi.com/ - Ha Ji Won thread which is of course my Ultimate Female Crush! :) This is where I lurk a lot!
6.) Soshified Style ( http://style.soshified.com/ ) - Yes, Soshi! :) This website is amazing for researching where the outfits of SNSD members are from. SNSD-style, outfits from head to toe and accessories. Awesome site!
and hopefully, my blogsite would also be on the list soon when I get to update it everyday. :)
If you have noticed the posts I have before this, you would notice that the dates were like the first half of the year. I actually created a Wordpress account and created a blog from there however I wasn't able to keep it up to date since 1.) I have a limitation on my laptop to create and modify using Wordpress like fonts, designs and posting media, 2.) it was kinda boring there, nakaka-walang gana. 3.) my busy sched (chos!)
There were so many things I wanted to blog about though and then lost my "gana" and then I ran over a blog account recently that made me realize that there was someone even worse than me. LOL. (Disclaimer: I'M NOT A BLOGGER ) However, she had a lot of nice pictures and her webpage is way over nicer than mine. (Okay?) LOL.
Anyhow, so hopefully on this blog I would be able to keep up, otherwise, I am so gonna be a loser. Kidding. It's not like blogging is a necessity right? I really wanted to try blogging especially that I have so many things on my mind lately. Hopefully, I get to post images too but there are restrictions in the office so will edit and upload it when I am at home :)
So yeah, wish me luck! :)